Would I change myself?

If there was a magic device that could change my brain so that I am normal, would I do it?

Right now, I don't know. One year ago, it would have been no. If I could choose who I was before I was born, I wouldn't have chosen this, but now it is a part of who I am. It is part of my identity I guess. Though things have changed and I would now consider it, but I think the answer would still be no. I can deal with it, and I can resist it. If I thought there was any chance that I would harm a kid as I am, I would change. But I know I won't, so I can deal with what I am. It's hard, but I just wouldn't want to change myself like that. It just feels wrong to me.

Would you use a machine that made you gay (or if you already are, straight) just because you couldn't find someone of your current preference? Or somehow altered a part of who you are? I suppose it's being... oppressed (for want of a better word) has made me feel as though being a pedo is a defining part of me. Much like how blacks or gays from in the past might feel. It is part of who I am and not being able to express that... gives it more significance I suppose. So no, I wouldn't want to change it if I could. I know I'm not going to hurt anyone so it would serve no purpose.

I should say it's not all of who I am, but it's a part of me. To get rid of it I suppose would be like getting rid of a part of me.